dara's heart.

dddara @ 2006-04-21T23:57:00

2006-04-22T03:58:16Z

new livejournal.
missingclues
missingclues
missingclues
missingclues
missingclues
missingclues
missingclues

comment & shitttt.

dddara @ 2006-04-06T21:20:00

2006-04-07T01:52:11Z

Instructions: Write one statement to each of 1011 people on your LJ friends list. ~~Never tell which one is for whom.~~
if you can guess, i'll tell you.

1. YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND. you seriously have no idea how much i love you and how much you make me laugh. i love how much time we spend together and how we'z laughing the whole time :) i even love how retarded you are, 'cause it makes me smile. you're one of the most beautiful people i've met in my entire life & i never have more fun hanging out with anyone. thankyouforeverything ♥ I LOVE YOUUUU.

2. wowww baby you're one of my best friends & i love that i can talk to you about basically everythingg. you're always there & you always have the answers i know i may not want to hear, but need to hear. thank you so much for being so honest & caring. even if you eat weird food @ my cribb you're still something special to me ;D ahah. i love you & our drag queen names. you mean the worlddd ♥

3. kjsngisfd!! you are one of my favorite people in the world & one of my best friends. funny how i met you through myspace, eh? hahah. i wish we lived in the same town & that i saw you more than just one or two nights a week. i always have the best time with you, & you cheer me up like you wouldn't believe. never, ever change, because you are such a genuine person & you are so incredibly happy that it's contagious. ♥

4. :] you are such a sweetheart. i love how i can talk to you & you seem to understand me, perfectlyy. you're such a good friend & i'm actually REALLY happy i met you. i wish i saw you more than i do, and one of these days, we really need to hang out! :D iloveyouawholelottt♥!

5. talking to you & seeing you are some of my favorite things! :) you're so hilarious & you hugs make my dayyy. i only see you like, once a week, on friday nights.. but i'm really hoping i'll be able to see you a lot more soon! & obv. hang out more. thanks for urrythang & remember i'm always here for you - & i still owe you that ice cream & talk on the roof. :D ♥! iloveyouuu!

6. you are the most genuine & the kindest person i have ever met. you are beautiful & there is nothing i don't love about you. :] i hope we can spend more time together than the few minutes i see you every now & then. ♥♥ i love youuuu!

7. you're a huge sweetheart! :] we don't talk nearly as much as i'd like to, but seeing you on fridays makes me reeeeaally happy. we can relate with a lot & i'm really happy about that. i hope one of these days we can get closaaa. :D iloveyou! ♥

8. eeek. we had a rough start to our friendship, huh? haha but seriously, you're such a sweetheart & i'm really glad we cleared everything up. we really need to hang outtt soon! :D ♥

9. you are one of the coolest people i've evahhh mettt. i don't hang out with you as much as i'd like to though :[ but whenever i do i have a great timeee, even if we're just making fun of people. :D we definitely need to hang out a lottt more than we do & if you give me your number i promise i won't lose it, but i promise i won't remember it, & i'll call you sometimeee :D! hahah ♥ ILOVEYOU!

10. you're one of the best friends i could have ever asked for. it sucks that you live so far away, but i'm glad we talk as much as we do & that i can talk to you about a lot. i love hearing your boyfriend stories because it makes me SO happy that you've found someone you can love. you're amazing & beautiful. thanks so much for everythingg. ♥♥

11. you are the cutest person i've met in my lifeee. i love hanging out with you, even though we don't hang out as much as we should :[ you're such a sweetheart & bowling wouldn't be nearly as much fun without you. i love youuu :D ♥!

dddara @ 2006-04-03T21:54:00

2006-04-04T01:55:24Z

liz b and I are going to the zoo sometime next week so I can see the kangaroos.
I'm so exciteddd.

OH AND WE HAVE FRIDAY (the 14th) OFF. WHY DID I NOT KNOW THIS?!

dddara @ 2006-04-02T19:23:00

2006-04-02T23:31:00Z

it's been a weird day.
but i had a really amazing weekend.

friday night i went to the mall & hung out with liz, & bryan & ryan for most of the night. & i did the same on saturday night & i had more fun than i usually ever do. i love them all so much. my bffz & i'm soso lucky i gotz them ♥

todaaaay i went shopping with my mom. i got three pairs of pants, leggings, & a jean skirt. we went out to lunch & agreed that we're starting a diet tomorrow. cool.
my cruise is in just a little over a month. eeee i am so excited! :D

school's almost over for the year, too. i wish it wasn't, kind of. i've met so many people that i loooove this year & this semester has been so simple, hahah. but i love the freedom of spring & i kind of wish vacation would hurry up. whatevs.
i'm so indecisive.

& i'm done with joshh, so hollaaa@me ;D
ahahaha.

edit: if you don't want feedback on your PUBLIC LIVEJOURNAL ENTRIES, how about disabling comments & actually taking what people say like a big girl? thaaaaanks.

dddara @ 2006-03-31T22:21:00

2006-04-01T03:23:55Z

"it takes a lot to love someone after they cheat on you & hurt you more than you've ever hurt before. that's why I believe you when you say you love him."

thank you jess, for being the one person with any faith in me and the situation. it means the entire fucking world. ♥

dddara @ 2006-03-28T21:02:00

2006-03-29T02:06:40Z

WHY IS IT ONLY TUESDAY.
i'm overtired & overworked & HI I WANT THE WEEKEND REALLY BAD.
i haaaaate attleboro. so much.
ahah, we got a bomb threat the other day, & goddamn, i wish something happened. ANYTHING to get me out of school for a few days.
whatevswhatevs.

i'm doing soso much better about the whole josh thing.
i'm done laying down for him & taking his hits.
i'm throwing them back.
as hard as i can.
as hard as i fucking can.

i just spent two and a half hours on my english homework. gaaah. way to waste my life ): hahahah.

i'm in such a good mood & god knows why, but i'm enjoying myself a lot right now.
i'm going to go watch house with my mom & get off the computer. i'm annoyed with myself for being on so much, all the time.

:DDD

all my friends, ahfoiguffgs i love you all so much. seriously getting through all of this would've been impossible without you. you all know who you areeee :D

& saundra! call me sometime this week since you're grounded off the comp :)!

dddara @ 2006-03-19T21:27:00

2006-03-20T02:34:05Z

do you ever feel the "a", "of", or the "and" in a title that is never important enough to be capitalized?

i'm crashing & burning.
i wish i could say that i care.

what gets me.. what really gets me, is that it's only been two weeks since it's been over. & that sometimes, i still fall apart over it. i break down into little pieces of what used to be me, and it takes awhile to pick up the pieces. but already, he has someone new. already.
i'm so much above this & i wish i could keep my spirit that high.

i saw bryan today & that honestly made my weekend. you wouldn't believe how happy that made me.

dddara @ 2006-03-17T21:55:00

2006-03-18T02:57:33Z

things were good today. I was in a really good mood.. & then I came home to found out that josh was cheating on me the whole time and he now has a girlfriend.
whatever.
I'm sick of the bullshit and I'm now allowing myself to be upset beyond tonight.

I will find better. there IS so much better.
but, let me tell you, there's nothing like the feeling of knowing you lived a lie for a good two months.

dddara @ 2006-03-12T19:19:00

2006-03-13T00:31:34Z

I miss him. no one compared.
all 2,000 sets of eyes I pass each day see the same exterior. he always saw something deeper; he thought i was beautiful. he realized how thick the armor protecting my heart is, how soft the cotton that it rests in is. he didn't know how sore my eyes constantly are, or that I'm seeing images sharper with every passing minute. but, I do thank him, for all that he knows. from the bottom of my red, firey, and newly wounded heart, I thank him for knowing. this is for daily reminders that I never thanked him as much as I should have.

dddara @ 2006-02-20T19:20:00

2006-02-21T00:20:30Z

I had a really amazing weekend.
friday night I went to the mall with lizz, bryan, and lauren. I saw soo many people I know who I don't see usually. it was a good time.
saturday I went back to the mall with lizz, where we just ate and spent wayy too much time in spencers and playing virtual soccer. we met up with kyle too, and spent some time with him.
last night was bryan's sweet sixteen! it was such a bomb party and I had such a good time. (: bryan, I hope you had a really good time, 'cause I definitely did. I love you a lott & we're gonna be partying together a lot more!

yeah, the party turned into a big orgy real fast.

apparently I didn't know I was in the picture.

ps, all of these pictures were taken from ashley (: